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Friday, February 28, 2003 ( 10:12 PM ) Jacquet dreamed small. oh my gosh. those words so hit home today. my whole likf can be descriped and explained with those words! everything i do is so small and has almost no meaning and where does it all get me? i do nothing and as a result, AM nothing. not right now anyway. i also feel like dirt. like everything i do is just NOTHING. i'm workin my ass off, for nothing. and when it is for something, most the time it blows up in my face. some happy ending, huh? it just feels like i'm doing nothing with my life. my life is a big, fat NOTHING. geez. am i babbling like a fool. i know i am, but i just gotta scream and there is no one to scream to and i'm so cold and tired and just sick of being alone and doing nothing. "I'm sick and tired of being a nobody. And I'm sick and tried of being with nobody." -jac # ( 5:19 PM ) Jacquet life blows. ok? ok. no joke. just when things are starting to look up it all comes back down again. right on your head. like a ton of bricks. geez. never say "it can't get worse." hell yeah, it can! Some say dark clouds have silver linnings Some say you day can't get much worse I'd say my cloud is raining down I'd say my day is worse. for those of you who know anything about my family situation, well, it just got worse. at least it's not looking pretty. hmm. life blows. it really does. it sucks and blows! -jac # Thursday, February 27, 2003 ( 9:40 PM ) Jacquet well, high ho the dairy oh! (oh my gosh that just sounds wrong! hmm, or is that me? maybe i just think of everything that way. maybe i'm just perverted. geez my brain is always in the gutter!) anyway, i just ment to say, nothing new, like ALWAYS. every show on tonight is a rerun, so that's just goodie. :-P night night, peeps. i think i'll go to bed early tonight. -jac # ( 3:34 PM ) Jacquet little known facts about me: 1) too much sleep makes me sick 2) i use to like pop music 3) i don't drink soda anymore 4) i say 'oy vey' when i'm tired 5) i *hate* mushrooms 6) Hide & Yellow make me cry 7) i'm in a band (ha ha) 8) i wanna join the air force 9) can wear size 4 in children's shoes 10) love sushi! 11) never cried in a movie theater 12) i get motion sickness 13) i like dessert wines 15) no license yet 16) i'm claustrophobic 17) my room is pink :-/ 18) i'm scared of dead people/mummies 19) Zorro is my favorite superhero 20) i'm gunna get a boob job (no, just kidding :-D) # Tuesday, February 25, 2003 ( 2:43 PM ) Jacquet weelll, here i sit with another pounding headache. not a new thing to share in the world. hmm... hours laters... then again, there's nothing like chatting with a good friend on IM to help lift the weary heart. so thanks to ken. hell, my headache is gone. -jac # Monday, February 24, 2003 ( 5:42 PM ) Jacquet hey all, i'll be gone for a couple days. busy with, heh, lots of things. life's just as crazy as all heck right now, so please pray for us. for my dad, mom and bros most of all, as they will being leaving for the rest of the week. *sigh* lates for now. -jac # Sunday, February 23, 2003 ( 3:27 PM ) Jacquet hmm. well, my grandpa just died. this afternoon. *sigh* life sucks so bad, sometimes it hurts. i dunno what to feel. i feel sad, alone, kinda hurt. hurt? yeah, hurt. dunno why, i just do. pray for my dad and his brothers and sisters. this is just so hard. why? why now? why at this time? don't tell me that it'll be ok and that God works everything for good. i know that, dammit. so tell me something new, something i don't know. in fact, don't say anything. please, don't. but how bout a hug? yeah, i'll take one of those. hmm...wow. life's a strange, strange thing. -jac # |
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