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Friday, April 11, 2003 ( 10:12 PM ) Jacquet you all HAVE to read these funny as ALL get out!!! ok, ok. a lil warning. if you ADORE LotR and do not like poking any fun at them, then *do not* read. oh, and if you don't mind *ahem!* crude humor. hee hee hee! tooooo funny, laughed like crazy at Lego baby. *wink* -jac # ( 3:33 PM ) Jacquet i start on Wednesday. oh the joy. Lara, how'd that chat go with your friend? Kate, how's school and the people there? Bethany, 'ullo! sorry you can't comment. snif! Courtney, hey hon! i'm sending you a email, sometime. :) to anyone else who reads this, post a comment so i know who you are! -jac # ( 3:08 PM ) Jacquet 1) I don't want to do this I don't want to fall But I know that I must do this If I'm to conquer at all 2) I don't want to kneel down Be broken into bits But I know I must go down If I'm to win over this 3) I don't want to give up Forsaking all my dreams Do I have to show up? It's humiliating to me C.) I just don't want to Do I have to? Tell me that I don't Tell me that it's not true Tell me that I won't Have to do all that I must do 4) I don't want to see the day I don't want a new start But it's too late, it's today Is there courage in my heart? B.) Can I face what I must see? I know it makes a stronger me Can I do this and still feel free? Just letting go and let it be 5) I don't wanna face this truth I know that I'm just scared But I know that I must tell the truth I'm just so unprepared i know the lyrics are so simple. infact, it's not even what i really wanted to write in the first place. but i swear, it wouldn't let me write it any other way. ya got any helpful tips on making it better? or a good tittle for the thing? # Tuesday, April 08, 2003 ( 10:20 PM ) Jacquet i am not looking forward to this new job. and don't any of you DARE give me some kinda of crud that it'll be ok and that i'll get use to it and i will hate it if i have such a bad attitude. I KNOW THAT ALREADY. grrr. can i just not be excited about it?? WELL?! is it a sin to not look forward to something you don't wanna do?! do YOU wanna join a union and pay half your pay check to and for peeps you don't know and don't give a rat's bum about?! (from a pay check that is a disgrace of all pay checks.) do YOU wanna haul carts in from the rain and hang out with retarded people and smokers?! do YOU wanna clean up kid puke from isle 7?! do YOU wanna work for people that won't even explain something to you, even after you've asked them too? TWICE?! but they ignore your questions and now you don't know what the heck you are suppose to do?? do you wanna wear a scarf/broach/bow around your neck?! well. DO YOU?! HUH? I DON'T! and i don't care if i am making money, which is the only reason i am doing this. i'm not making enough to even talk about though! auuurgh! ok. ok. i just needed a min to spaz out. i'm ok now. i think. seriously, i'm not gunna kill myself or anything. in fact, after having a talk with my mom i felt a lil better and have resigned myself to what lies ahead and plan on facing it like everything else i don't care for in life, but must do anyway. i will tough it out. do the work i am told to do and do it well. cuz this job ain't forever and this life ain't forever. so, i can't cry over the one and i can't waste the other. that goes both ways. *sighs* please, please pray for me, peeps. i'm a slow learner and kinda worried about the training and aalllll the stuff i gotta learn. i guess more then anything i'm scared to face the unknown. i hate being outta my comfort zone. but i know i'm where God wants me. that gives me some peace. *sighs again* lates. -jac # Monday, April 07, 2003 ( 4:14 PM ) Jacquet btw, new Smallville episodes, peeps! WATCH'EM! # ( 4:09 PM ) Jacquet Hard days made me, hard nights shaped me... hmm, i could go on and on just by using Good Charlotte lyrics. :) anything new in the world of nothing in which i live and am the president of? nope. but if you wanna read some funny stuff, heh. go to seedy's ranting station he's got a funny post today. heh heh. :) holy hell, college is boring as cher's concert! well, right now it is. crud. it's hard to explain, i mean, i always wanna be learning and pushing myself to do more and do it better, but this is just BOR-ING! whaa! kk, so i'll tough it out for now. give me a min and i'll probably think of another Good Charlotte song to go with that. "at my high school, it felt more to me like a jail cell..." and the headaches are back, which can only mean one thing. sTrEsS is back. which is true. for a while everything was ok. "...it's not alright, but i'm ok. i'm ok." who knew that adding a couple more things to my list would bring'em back?! gaaaad. stupid head and stupid sore neck. btw, Orange Paper people, heads up! we need to write a birthday song. ya know how there's a few holiday songs? well, we need a birthday one. something with this kind of a vive: hope your birthday doesn't suck this year. etc. and just call it, Birthday. anyhoo. lates. -jac # |
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