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Friday, April 25, 2003 ( 10:03 PM ) Jacquet just dreaming, please bear with me... you will no doubt be surprised that i have nothing new or of interest to say. my life is but an empty dream. or something like that. i really do wish i had something fascinating to type. or some wonderful insight to share with all of you about life and the wonderful gift it is. although some of us make is a curse, not a gift. in saying that i am pointing only to myself, not to some other person. just wishing, please bear with me... i wish i could remember when i was born and all the circumstances that took place afterward. i wish i could know what my mother was thinking when she gave me up for adoption. i hold no hard feelings to her. in fact, i am grateful. no, i'm just wondering what she thought as she held me one last time. i wish i knew what it was like to give my life for someone else, to give them the chance to live and see how it effects their daily living. i wish i could say what i really want to say to people, instead of being bound in the fear of man and always concerned with what i say and how i look. i wish everyone would try, at least once in their life, to make someone else happy besides them. wouldn't that make the world a better place? not just having happy times only around Christmas? i wish i could relive my life. i would do it all over again so differently. just thinking out loud, please bear with me... -jac # Thursday, April 24, 2003 ( 9:02 PM ) Jacquet if you were gunna be shipping off to a lone island with only one cd, what cd would that be? and do tell me why. man, i'm full of meaningless questions. ahh well. *wink* # Wednesday, April 23, 2003 ( 5:10 PM ) Jacquet ya'll heard this song? it soooo helps me get through my freakin' days. *sigh* Switchfoot More Than Fine When I wake in the morning, I want to blow into pieces. I want more than just ok, more than just ok. When I’m up with the sunrise I want more than just blue skies. I want more than just ok, more than just ok. I’m not giving up, giving up, not giving up now. I’m not giving up, giving up, not backing down. More than fine, more than bent on getting by. More than fine, more than just ok. When I’m wet with the sunshine. I want more than just a good time. I want more than just ok, more than just ok. I’m not giving up, giving up, not giving up now. I’m not giving up, giving up, not selling out. More than fine, more than bent on getting by. More than fine, more than just ok. More than fine, more than bent on getting by. More than fine, more than just ok. More than oceans away from the dawn. More than oceans away from the dawn. More than oceans away from who we are More than oceans, more than oceans, yeah. # Tuesday, April 22, 2003 ( 10:06 PM ) Jacquet hoooly cooow! that had to be one of the BEST smallville episodes i've ever seen in my life! Lana kicks ass! and i got a celly that rocks. and it was sunny. and i didn't have to work. wow, it's been a good day. and that, my friends, is totally odd for me. well, for these past few months anyway. or years. hmm. go small! lates! -jac # ( 12:42 PM ) Jacquet "yes, and it's going to be a beautiful day!" -Drew Barrymore as Danielle from Ever After # Monday, April 21, 2003 ( 10:22 PM ) Jacquet could it be? a reality tv show that is somewhat reality?! naw. in fact this one is far from real, like all those other staged shows they claim are real life. whatever, you KNOW that there's a director behind the camera deciding what goes on air and what gets cut and what to show and who to show and to maybe add lib a bit or twist the people's words. but the show i saw tonight (just the ending part of it) was a tad different. yeah it was *again* one of those find-your-soul-mate-and-marry-on-tv types, but with a cruel twist. any of you seen it? it's called, Mr. Personality. this chick has to pick her "husband" from a group of 10 men, thing is, this is the best part, they have they faces completely covered and she can't see them AT ALL, unless she cuts them from her roster then they get to "reveal" themselves. but what i like about this show is that it's not based all on looks. she has to pick by how he acts and behaves. although, you KNOW that they picked all hot guys for this, so it's really a win win situation for her. me being rather picky about varying degrees of hotness in males and all that junk, i find this just a little fascinating. otherwise, reality tv stinketh! anyhoo. ok, that was boring. lates! -jac # ( 4:02 PM ) Jacquet just some awesome blogs to read. (Lara, i gotta have you help me link these things.) Jon's blog Lydia's blog Lara's blog Kate's blog OP's blog # ( 3:22 PM ) Jacquet ok, so maybe it's getting better, eh? there are two guys that are just the sweetest and really helpful to newbie here. Quentin and Matt are sooo great. Quentin is 17 ("nice brother", Lara) and Matt is around 30. Quentin is funny and so relaxed and helps me with all the stuff that i have no idea about. Matt is so encouraging. in fact, he told me that "...If you're not doing your job good, it's because WE aren't helping you..." aww. :) working with him really made time fly, which was a relief, cuz usually the last hour drags by like some poor soul stuck in hell. and i got coffee. woohoo. what have i been up too? nothing much. i have work and school and normal house duties. and then i waste loads of time on the net and such. plus i try to cram in the occasional letter to peeps. and then at night i chill with a movie or just in my room with my baby. holy crap, thank goodness for that guitar. geeeez. it's like my life saver! and thank high heaven for good friends! like ya'll reading this! thanks for everything, for being there for me and for your prayers. i gotta, GOTTA get a few of you up here to visit me. :) lates all! -jac # Sunday, April 20, 2003 ( 2:46 PM ) Jacquet happy Easter. what did you all do for it? anything cool or different? us? naw, nothing new. out church had a cool program though. not gunna go into all of that here and now, but it was nice. i really wish i had something awesome to say on this awesome day, but i don't. all i can think is, "He's alive! He's alive! He's alive and i'm forgiven heaven's gates are opened wide!" -jac # |
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