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Saturday, June 21, 2003 ( 9:50 PM ) Jacquet ok, i know you didn't mean it as funny, but that *was* funny, li. "...he's just the guy that aided in my creation." but i completely know what you mean. *sigh* and it IS kinda sad to think that our own fathers don't really know how we feel or even care about what we want in life! sheesh. anyhoo. we had our vbs training today. (boring.) although SOME people are simply slackers...*ahem!* but i won't mention names, simple that a dude named matt is a sooo lucky he wasn't there. yeah, lucky you. so i said it. it was good though to be able to kinda look over what we need to do, since some of us (namely me) haven't studied for this at all. i dunno if you can call it studying. hmm. anywayz! they did tell us about the out reach trips we will all be going on and those sound awesome. if anything a week without work. tee hee! but where i'm going, there's nothing around. our vbs leader told us that you could walk the town in 5 mins. (and i thought orting was bad!) but it'll still be great. jesse told me he'd stock up on the sobe. woohoo! only one BAD thing about the week. I CAN'T BRING MY WALKMAN!!!!! AARG! (to borrow lara's phrase.) crap. i was so hoping i could at least bring it along for the looooong car ride. shit. a week without our lady peace...i dunno if i can do that! kk, i gotta go, my back has been killing me and i need drugs. i think i stressed something in my back. anyhoo. buh bye for now. -jac # Tuesday, June 17, 2003 ( 12:31 PM ) Jacquet "This is your life, are ya who you wanna be?" (No, but that's ok. *wink*) Wow I love that song and speaking of wow, go to Li's blog. *Snif* What a poem. Very awesome, Li. Very. Hi ho, hi ho, it's off to work I go. Well, pretty soon anyway. I still can't stand it, but it's getting better. :-P And my father got a new apartment today, so, I suppose that's good news. Hmm, maybe. Keep praying for my family. I've got a couple letters I have to write on dad's behalf and I'm not quite sure what to say or do. The end of this drama is near, or so it seems, I think my stress has to do with that also. None of us knows how the verdict will stand. I'm so scared he's gunna go back. I saw a pic of the inside of one of the cells the other day...I'm so scared he's gunna go back. anyhoo. Oh yeah! Dang, Lara didn't get the office job she applied for. Crap. That would've been so perfect for her. And now I also have no reason to work there. (I was only going cuz I'd get to hang out with Lara.) So it's back to school with me and (for now anyway) I'm gunna keep aiming for Child Development. Like I said before, I'm not sure what to do anymore, but CLS still sounds awesome. Oh well. I'll just focus on that and I can change my mind later if I want. Hey, did i ever tell any of you my "secret" dream in life? Well just the other day I find out that mom is not opposed to it and would let me if I wanted to really pursue it! Kk, most of you know that I'm gunna go to Korea one of these days and work in an orphanage there. Ok well, don't be surprised if I come back with my own baby. *wink* Serious! Mom said I could adopt a baby when I'm old enough and have enough money! I'm soooo getting a China doll. :) I'm not kidding ya'll! I've always known that I would adopt and hey, the future looks bright. Well, the FAAAAR future, not the near. :-P Anywayz! Pretty cool, eh? Ok, don't give me that crap about raising a baby on my own is stupid and she needs a father, yadda yadda yadda. I know that crap already. But think about it. They are KILLING baby girls over there and if I can somehow save one and give her all my love, which I know isn't alot or that great, but it's more then she has over there! And I could show her God's love! Ya know, then I could say my life may have counted for something good. And it's not like she's going to be without male role models in her life. She'll have her older cousins, her grandfather, her two AWESOME uncles. Yeah. She's gunna be fine. And so am I! GEEZ! I swear I didn't mean to ramble like this. On and on we sing this song... *sigh* I haven't blogged in a while and feel chatty, what can I say? Love to all! -jac # |
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